I feel like I haven't made a post in forever. I guess I have just been kinda busy with stuff, which is very rare for me because my life is boring as hell.
Well prom was a couple of weeks ago and it was a lot of fun. Taking pictures with my date was kinda awkward though because we are nothing more than friends and both of us aren't really "touchy" types of people. I danced for the first time at prom. No joke. It was a lot of fun. After prom we just went back to someone's house for a couple of hours. The next day I went to an amusement park with some of my friends. That was also a lot of fun, but it was really hot.
That Saturday I graduated. As we were leaving, my dad and I had an argument in the car. I cried on the way to graduation and several times when I got home. I had a very crappy day. Pictures of me in my cap and gown don't exist because my parents didn't think to take any pictures. I guess it just never occurred to them that they should take pictures of their daughter on the day she graduates from high school. I am upset about this.
The day after graduation I had a party. My party originally was only for family so I decided I would not invite any of my friends, but then my mom decided to invite other people too. By that time it was too late for me to invite any of my friends. My family party went well I guess.
I have been to two graduation parties so far. I always feel so awkward and left out at social gatherings. It sucks. I am happy though that I have a graduation party every weekend in July though because I get to see my friends. Honestly, if I wasn't going to any graduation parties, I probably wouldn't hang out with my friends at all during the summer. I do not have a social life and I honestly don't understand why. Even at work, a lot of people hangout with each other but no one ever invites me to do anything. And I know you're probably thinking that I should take the initiative, but I can't really have people over my house because my dad is drunk by about 5pm every day and I honestly don't even like know how to go about making plans. It is sad.
I don't like summer vacation. I never have. It makes me depressed. I am crying as I type this.
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Congratulations on graduating! My parents aren't the kind of people who take pictures. If it weren't for my grandmother, I probably wouldn't have any of me either.
It's kind of hard getting used to taking the initiative to invite people to make plans. It tends to fall on my shoulders in my group of friends, and the best way to do it is to A) pick something to do that sounds fun to you, like go to a restaurant or the mall or the park and B) call up a thousand different people you want to see and tell them they should go there. If you have texting, even better. That kind of thing is what mass texts were made for. OR if you don't have anything in mind, just call someone up when you're lonely. See if they're busy and together come up with something to do if they're not.
A lot of the time, people don't get invited someplace just because no one would think they'd go. If you start calling and asking people what they're doing, someone will get the hint and start inviting you places.
If you're shy it can be kind of tough at first, but it also gets rid of that shyness pretty quick.
I hope you have a great summer getting ready for college/work/whatever you plan on doing! =)
@AibellFaeire - Agreed.
This summer is going to be the first time in at least 5 or 6 years, I think, that I have to have a birthday party (all those other years I was away during my birthday, which I like a lot better). I'm really scared, because I'll be worried that people aren't having fun =/
It seemed kind of relevant...I don't really have problems with hanging out though, because that's only one or two other people, but parties are a lot of people...
well... maybe during high school u never enjoyed summer, but hey, college'll be a new experience, right? one thing that's for sure is that you will miss home and coming back each break will be something you'll learn to look forward to.
for me, summer break is the best and all i live for... i'm constantly bombarded with stress, especially while i'm mid-way into the semester.. but summer and winter break is when all i need to worry about is work. no homework : )
each year the workload in college will increase... enjoy whatever breaks you can while u can.
i'm sorry that you aren't close to some that you would want to be. however, i'm sure things'll be different next semester. it's the beginning of a new term, as well as a new stage in your life.
good luck and keep your chin up.